Yes, this is a serious question. There will be a tl;dr at the end.
When I started out this game nearly two years ago I decided to focus on a Thief character because it looked cool. I always revealed some issues with the class from start, but other players kept saying that it would get better once I reached Level 80. More issues raised up but people and I always found a way to just keep going on with excuses. So I continued playing, finished the story… and just got a liking out of the character. I did so much with this character in particular and completed all maps and all kinds of story instances possible that I just couldn’t let go of her.
And for the past six months, I’ve been working on the Legendary dagger, the Incinerator. It even made me take a 5-month break, so it’s been almost a year since I started working on it. It felt like a chore and like it was never going to end… I even made myself do a few borrowings from some in-game friends to keep things at a steady rhythm.
But just a few days ago I finally managed to forge the weapon… and it didn’t feel rewarding at all. I wasn’t really happy about it. The sound effects sometimes glitch out, the footsteps are inconsistent and the error in the flame’s animation and clipping is becoming more and more noticeable.
That really isn’t the really big issue here. My Daredevil is honestly the only character that mainly uses daggers. I have one or two other characters that do use a dagger as some kind of off-hand weapon, but they’re not played as much and they do not fully rely on said weapon. And now that I finally got my focus away from this “Legendary Journey” I decided to take a few things more seriously and tried dwelling into PvP and WvW and even other types of intense PvE mostly by myself. It seems like I have been denying all this time that I’m not exactly a good player to when it comes to a thief. I die, a lot. Doesn’t matter what kind of objective, build and items my character wears, she will constantly fail. I can’t even solo Story instances without constantly getting my butt kicked.
And I’m leaning on the idea of just dropping the character altogether or even delete her to make room for a new one. It’s just incredibly frustrating. I have spent so many hours and years dedicating time to a character that I absolutely hate now. This is why I’m asking if it’s possible to state the dagger back into its original state and even remove the skin altogether from my account’s wardrobe. I want nothing to do with it anymore and I would rather sell it on the TP to pay off some debts and give the money some other use.
I just think that I did an incredibly foolish decision.
Tl;dr: I spent nearly two years working on a character and then six months on a legendary only to find out that none of these was exactly what I was hoping for all this time.