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Posted by: Ryan Mozo.9581

Ryan Mozo.9581

Well, here it goes. A while ago I remember reading a post about how someone truly connected with the character Taimi because they themselves felt somewhat similar to Taimi due to unfortunate disabilities. This, and an extended period of time debating (similar to that of plucking flower petals one by one “say it” … “don’t say it” …, but making sure to land on “don’t say it”) whether I want to share my own story, I guess I too finally gathered enough courage to actually say it. Or maybe it’s due to the realization of the protection of internet anonymity, because I haven’t told anyone else before…

Anyways I’ll come right out; I suffer from depression, co-morbid with a few other things. As you can imagine this takes a toll on my every day life. While this may be the case in the real world, there seems to be a lack of said toll in Guild Wars. I’ve come to appreciate the thought and time it took to create a sense of a “Living World” because this offers the best chance to escape the real world. You get to become someone else and truly be in a world where you shape it from the ground up. You can be whoever you want to be and do whatever you want to do with little to no judgement from other people. Suddenly, it feels like a huge weight is lifted from within myself when I play this game, offering me freedom from which I don’t normally have. I can actually talk and have conversations with other people. I can make friends who actually stick by my side. I can live. For some reason I can’t get this feeling doing anything else, which is why I love this game so much.

So thank you to the wonderful creators of this game. Your efforts at building this game haven’t gone unnoticed, and I hope you know there are a variety of different ways this game has touched the hearts of many, including my own. And also thank you to the people who also enjoy Guild Wars 2, with whom I wouldn’t be able to say this if it weren’t for you.
Thanks for your time if you did read this.
Ryan

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Posted by: winterchillz.2564

winterchillz.2564

Heartwarming post, mate, thank you for sharing your story. I have nothing else to say but that we’re all out there for you. Thank you for being part of the GW community.

/hug

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Posted by: Lodius.5392

Lodius.5392

Thanks for sharing. (Beware of some of the jerks on here that want nothing else than to flame you and make you feel worse).

That being said. I have dealt with a depression problem for 20+ years. The medication only helps so much. It is not linked to anything except a true illness.

However, medicine only helps so much. It is games like GW2 that keep me in a peace of mind. As you said, being able to escape and enjoy being an awesome Guardian, Mesmer, or Warrior. The feeling of being in a successful PUG and showing your skills, truly offers a rewarding feeling. Especially when you do something spectacular in game. (For instance, everyone else in the group died when I finished off one of the bosses in COE by myself.)

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Posted by: DragonWhimsy.6489

DragonWhimsy.6489

I find the world, art style, music, races, and characters very heartwarming myself. I always feel my spirits lift when I log onto the world of Tyria in a way I don’t in any other game.

And of course there are those players here who have become my IRL friends too.

I’m glad others find this game an uplifting experience as well. Though we’re all here because we love the game, it’s nice to see a post praising the game, rather than just complaining. There’s a need and place for such feedback, but we should never forget why we love this game in the first place.

Thanks for sharing your story.

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Posted by: alfista.6094

alfista.6094

Hi Ryan. It’s a big step going from “don’t say it” to “say it”, even if it’s anonymously. Thank you for choosing to share it with us.

You will always find someone here who will listen. Hope to see you ingame! :fistbump:

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Posted by: Galen Grey.4709

Galen Grey.4709

Thats a brave thing to share so thanks a lot for sharing it.
Tyria is indeed a nice place and people like you who breath a bit of themselves into it make it even better.

So thanks again for writing your story and for being you.

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Posted by: Vayne.8563

Vayne.8563

Hi Ryan, thanks for sharing this. There are a lot of people who play this game for similar reasons to you. It’s great that you found something you can do that helps.

Hope you have fun and find some peace in the future, both in Tyria and out of it.

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Posted by: Mental Paradox.3845

Mental Paradox.3845

I’ve been depressed and completely alone for years. Games offer an escape, but it doesn’t stop me from feeling empty inside.

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Posted by: zenleto.6179

zenleto.6179

I really don’t have much to say that wouldn’t sound trite so I’ll just go with saying I plus one’d you and to hang in there. If you need to get lost in something to get yourself through it then this is much better than some alternatives. DDO helped me a couple of years ago with a similar issue, though hardly as deep as yours. Good luck.

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Posted by: Sariel V.7024

Sariel V.7024

I think Mental has a good point, one I can back up. It is really easy to fall into a rut of salving your soul and neglecting the rest of your life around you, which keeps you trapped in whatever mess may be depressing you in the first place. I’m not saying to quit GW, but do investigate other options of help or support so that this game doesn’t become the sole crutch keeping you standing. It’s a dangerous position :/

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Posted by: Tobias Trueflight.8350

Tobias Trueflight.8350

I’ve been depressed and completely alone for years. Games offer an escape, but it doesn’t stop me from feeling empty inside.

It only magnifies it for me, during those periods where I am sitting up after my night shift and go: “what the heck am I doing with my life”. It just hits harder, even though I am very . . . very . . . motivated and working hard to try to get promotions and career advancement through what my job offers.

It’s just . . . I dunno, it’s hard to fight.

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Posted by: Astraea.6075

Astraea.6075

I think Mental has a good point, one I can back up. It is really easy to fall into a rut of salving your soul and neglecting the rest of your life around you, which keeps you trapped in whatever mess may be depressing you in the first place. I’m not saying to quit GW, but do investigate other options of help or support so that this game doesn’t become the sole crutch keeping you standing. It’s a dangerous position :/

It’s a position I’ve been in myself, and it ended badly. I lost my job and was nearly made homeless because the escape that games offered from my depression also cut me off more from the outside world and from the people who could support me.

Thankfully, that’s all in the past for me, but I would advise anyone in the OP’s position to try to balance the amount of time they spend in game with staying connected with the real world.

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Posted by: Regina Buenaobra

Regina Buenaobra

Content Marketing Lead

Hi, Ryan. Thank you for sharing your story with the community. It really means a lot to us that the game has helped you in some way, and offered you a place where you can escape from the cares of the world for a short time. Please take care and again—we appreciate your support.

Content Marketing Lead
Twitter: @ArenaNet, @GuildWars2
In-Game Name: Cm Regina Buenaobra

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Posted by: Ryan Mozo.9581

Ryan Mozo.9581

Thank you everybody for all of the kind words. I really appreciate your thoughts and voices. Hopefully I will see some of you in game

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Posted by: nexxe.7081

nexxe.7081

If you’re still in depression or becoming depressed, then GW2 is only prolonging it. You shouldn’t try to use it to escape reality. You should confront your problems, whether it’s with family and friends, or with a professional. I know it’s easier said than done, but escaping your depression by playing GW2 isn’t healthy at all. I’m not trying to be negative, but just offering advice.

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Posted by: eye floater.7140

eye floater.7140

Hey Ryan.
So, I know exactly how you feel, as others have already attested to. I was fairly depressed throughout highschool, and up until a few years ago computer games were one of my only escapes. The feeling of living vicariously through your character is amazing, especially since none of your anxieties are involved. You can be anyone you want, and no one will berate you for it.
The problem with this, is it goes nowhere. It’s comfortable, and you might even be content, but it’s not doing anything for your life. I’m not trying to kill your enthusiasm or praise for the game, though it may sound like it. You have to try and find a balance between improving your real life and dreaming in the virtual one.
Change helped for me. (found an awesome girl, got an apartment, etc.)
Sometimes the stuff you never think will happen, happens, and it completely flips your world upside down. Try and find a balance!
Good luck!
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Posted by: Domino.1359

Domino.1359

As much as a critique the game and add to the flames – I keep coming back because of the reasons you stated, OP
Good luck in your journey!

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Posted by: floude.5291

floude.5291

As a psychologist, all i can say to op is ‘Play the game but don’t land on it". You should fight with what you overwhelmed and what you ran away, not to use the game as a shelter. Maybe in the end if you fight with your issues you can see life is not like what you think.

Also, with all my respect, i still think this is a PR post, after the commander tag viral they wanna use the viral way with that kind of story.

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Posted by: Ropechef.6192

Ropechef.6192

((slow clap))

:)

good stuff!

SEE YOU IN GAME!!!!!!!!!!!

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Posted by: Tobias Trueflight.8350

Tobias Trueflight.8350

Thankfully, that’s all in the past for me, but I would advise anyone in the OP’s position to try to balance the amount of time they spend in game with staying connected with the real world.

Need to echo this . . . it does no lasting good to be stagnant and stationary in a situation where you can only maintain the status quo or degrade – inevitably, in such cases, entropy wins out. The result is not pretty . . .

I’d say you need to really stop and look about what makes the game give you so much relief, try to pinpoint it down to something and then work on finding that outside of the game. It can exist in the real world too, but you have to work for it.

For me, it’s a yearly trip to a particular renaissance festival I enjoy making with family, and walking around seeing a bunch of people dressed up and having a good time. Sharing slightly risque jokes and one-liners traded almost in an almost memetic fashion, and watching entertainers who have put effort into a craft which ordinarily wouldn’t be worth the time . . . except there, it is. There is something about it which just . . . resonates, I suppose.

And so . . . You need to find something outside the game which resonates just as much as the game does, and try to pull yourself forward one inch at a time. It’s not going to be easy, and there will probably be more failures than success . . . but if you’re not trying, you’re not living.

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