Ouch, that’s tough.
Why don’t you hop over to the Mesmer forum – I’m sure you’ll find some players in there to help.
High toughness, condition is in now. Power still good, but need some sustained pressure because of all the tanks out there.
Can still play glkittenter for example, but very risky.
Check out builds in that subforum – if you want to be different and develop more skill, stay away from PU builds – can start with one as it offers a lot of room for error while learning all the mechanics, and then transition to something else, ie shatter/lockdown/mantra, and so on.