So, I’ve been playing for a little over two months now I think. I come from a background of gaming, many years playing MMOs. And I don’t mean that to say that to qualify myself as great, just as able.
When I first started, I rolled up one of every class, played them all to about 15, read through traitlines, researched through the forums, and tried to get a feel for them. Out of all classes, I ended up leveling 3 into the 30s before settling on my first main.
About one month ago, I settled down on a long weekend I had off, and got ready to dive into my first dungeons. I was about 65 at that time. (Man, it’s easy leveling in this game). And, I will admit, my first experience with dungeons was pretty painful. Spent the better part of a day failing miserably in PuGs in AC. I managed to complete two paths in that day, out of several different groups, and many wipes.
It was a little daunting. But chalking it up to inexperience, and just the result of mostly new players, or impatient vets trying to force newbies into speed runs. Which I’m not new to, happens in all MMOs.
Anyways, I decided to post pone further dungeon diving until I hit 80, and got rares, and preferably exotics. I’ve done that, and have tried it again. Quite a bit less fail (more experienced PuGs I think and frankly, easier dungeons once past AC), but honestly, dungeon running left me wanting.
So, “Why?” I asked myself. I love so much of the game, so many things are right in GW2, the open world experience, the events, encounters, the dialog, crafting, even the micro-transaction store is well done, and that’s still a pet peeve of mine I still havn’t accepted in this modern era of gaming.
Anyways, the answer is, I love dungeon roles. It’s a necessary part of my gaming enjoyment.
I love being the tank, managing aggression, keeping everyone on me, prioritizing kill orders, using my class abilities to minimize my health loss, and keep everyone else safe. I like the satisfaction of standing at the middle of a pile of bodies, and everyone else in my party knowing I just did my job really well, and we’re moving on because I’m a competent tank.
I love being the healer, keeping everyone alive by having crunched numbers, properly utilized my resources, prioritized my healing targets, and cycled my class abilities right, so that at the end of an encounter, everyone else in my party knows that they are still standing and just defeated our enemy because I keep everyone up, and I’m a competent healer.
I love being DPS, min/maxing every facet of my gear and abilities/traits/talents to eek even the slightest increase from my output, managing my threat and making sure I am not pulling aggression, and making sure I am attacking the right enemies at the right time, so that at the end of the encounter, the healer still has mana, and I’m standing across a pile of dead bodies from the smiling tank because I killed things fast, making me a competent DPS.
I love being crowd control, forcing my self to focus intently in the thick of the action, to juggle and keep my team from getting swamped by adds, debuffing enemies, and throwing buffs out to my comrades, and most importantly breaking the fight up into bite sized chunks, so that at the end of the encounter, my tank knows that I was responsible for there always a manageable number of enemies on him at once, my healer knows that I was the reason that mean guy with a sword was suddenly sapped/deep sleeped/force lifted/blinded/charmed right before running him through.
I get only a slight bit, if any of that selfish and gratifying satisfaction playing Guild Wars 2. Instead, at the end of a fight, there is a breath, “Yay! We beat the boss… because… we all individually just managed to live by the skin of our teeth…”
I’m still here, because I’m determined to give the game a fair shake, and I’m also pretty desperately looking around for a new MMO home, and friends to call family.
But each day, I grow a little more disenchanted, because Guild Wars 2 taught me I’m selfish, and like feeling like I am important, and I can’t find it here.
TL;DR
I learned that class roles are a big deal for me, and most of my gaming enjoyment.
Sad day.