About me: Im new into the WvW commander buisness. I think i started out about 6 months ago by doing small deeds with the people who followed me such as flipping towers and killing few people.
When time passed on i slowly started to also do some minor blob killing and finaly went over to huge blob fights. Sometimes i got wiped with the people who followed me, sometimes we even had great success and did some amazing jobs (3-ways fights, flipping fully upgraded SM and so on and on).
But theres one thing that i have most of the times had a hard time being used to- the number of people following me in TS (which personaly means a lot more for me then the ppl who arent following me in TS). When i started then it was about 10-15 if i was lucky and when i got better in commanding then it increased to atleast 25-35 people regulary. In best and rare moments ive had up to 45+ people following me.
Though that came to an end. I dont know what happened, maybe the tournament ended but the number of people who are willing to follow me now has droped to 15 in TS if im lucky.
I cant get any numbers at all and im often interested in blob fights instead of flipping some towers for the 10000th time. But leading pugs with low numbers to take on small groups or a blob isnt the same as leading a guild raid and cause of that i have had high excpectations and we often got wiped out. Which also has decreased my “popularity” by a lot.
Now heres the real problem and some have mentioned to me- “Your voice is just ugghh. Theres no enthusiasm at all.” And even recently i got told “Your voice makes people suicide”. When i heared this in the beginning then i just tried to ignore them, eventhough i knew they were/are right. But now i just dont know what to do…
Its not like i have the power to change my own voice. I just dont see it possible. It also feels quite downgrading when some other commander tags up and he manages to draw in from double to triple the number of people into TS compared to my current number. Even taging in prime time wont get me nowhere. Makes me feel like im a complete nobody.
Often i have felt annoyed how some other few commanders “have shined into my face” about how succesful they are and sometimes even asked me something like: “I can take over if you cant handle” which seems like a insult cause i often lead with 2-3x less people then they do and im quite sure i have proven to people who have followed me how capable i am of commanding in small groups and what i can actualy do when i get a decent sized blob following my tag.
To some it all up- im a almost washed up WvW commander, who has a ugly voice, who has low amount of followers and who very often prefers doing blob fights instead of doing the regular karma train. And im close to abandoning the one thing that keeps me in GW2 and which i love the most- commanding pugs who sometimes make you feel like you want to pull your hair out, lol.
Share your opinions, give some advice, rage.