Part Four (Final)
“Hey, secure that weapon, soldier.”
The voice is like a boulder rolling downhill. I recognize it immediately as belonging to the charr who had taken charge after the attack. I look up at the stooping figure standing between me and the fire. I can’t see his face very clearly but an unyielding presence is enough to get me to fall into line. I tuck the gun back into its holster. For what seems like a long time he just stands there. My eyes adjust and slowly I start to make out his face as it bears down on me. There’s no telling what a charr is thinking. It’s an animal face that I have to try to put a human mask on. Eyes, nose, mouth, all fit into a recognizable pattern, but everything beyond that is just instinct and fear. It never quite fits. I guess I’m the same to him.
“Didn’t figure you for a coward.”
There’s unease in his voice, I think. I can tell he doesn’t like the look of me. It’s personal. I couldn’t say if I’d ever seen him before today, but apparently he knows me, or thinks he does.
“But it doesn’t matter what you are or how bad you think you have it, it’s not up to you anymore. You’re here because you were chosen for it, because you’re the best your kind has to offer. You’re here because you’re one of the only ones left who has even a fraction of a chance of stopping this thing. If we fail here, it isn’t just over for us, it’s the end for everyone. Your home will be defiled as this place was and every one of your race will lose their chance to live. You’re here for all of them because they can’t be. You can. You’re still alive and you owe it to them to give all you’ve got, everything till your very last gasp to kill the dragon. Remember that. You can die when this is all over.”
The charr turns and walks away, probably tired of looking at me. The pep talk was exactly what I’d expect to hear, so much so I can’t help but smirk at it. It’s something I could have told myself. The wind blows in from the sea, through the moldering logs and damp cord hastily lashed into a futile palisade, like the sound of freedom. Between the smoke of the fire and the rotting stench of this place is something else, something cool and rare from far away. It all comes together in my lungs and sends a jolt through me that’s like reliving a moment I’d forgotten. I feel my hands, my legs, my feet, bone, sinew and muscle honed to a single end. I’m still myself and I’m still in control. The shadow is still there, though what it is I couldn’t say for sure. Maybe just something I’m imagining, maybe something else, but whatever it is it doesn’t have a hold of me yet. If something ever tries, it’ll be in for a fight. I’ll be ready for it. We’re all here for a reason, and when the time comes we do what we have to. The sun brightens the sundered sky overhead, peeling away layers of darkness in jagged tears that sound the coming of dawn. Off at the edge the leaden haze gives way to the light, like the goddess calling out from some distant place that there’s still a world beyond all this. There’s fear, there’s ache, but there’s also certainty. I stand up to watch it climb over the wall as it dries black and fractured, above the shattered rings of humanity’s fallen crown that still reach toward the sky even as they collapse on themselves, and as the rising steam starts to cloud my vision I know that this may be the last one I see. The notion doesn’t bother me too much.